I don’t think there will ever be a time I don’t miss my husband. My life is moving on, and I am endeavoring to live in joy and happiness the best I can. But the memories and sadness linger. It is bittersweet.
I am so glad I have the memories, and I can laugh with my family about some of the silly things my husband said. In fact, I have quite a few “husbandisms” funny words and saying I have added to my vocabulary that put a smile on my face.
I would like to find someone to spend the rest of my life with at this point in my life. But have not been able to connect with the right person. I would rather live alone than settle, and in fact, I am learning to enjoy a lot of things that I would never expect. I believe we have signs from our loved ones, and this one was a stunner.
I enjoy soft rock and love songs. My husband enjoyed Bollywood and Punjabi love songs. I had recently built some music lists on Amazon music. I often ask Alexa to play one of those lists. One day I was listening to music, feeling lonely. I said to myself offhandedly, “I need a love story.” You will not believe what happened next.
I kid you not suddenly, an Indian love song in Punjabi started playing… I was flabbergasted.
I did not have anything like that on my list. That song brought back our love story and how the last years of his life, we were in love in such a spiritual and profound way, so much more than just a physical/worldly love. I did have my love story, and we still do. That had to be him telling me he loves me and flooding me with sweet memories.
Definitely, he intervened and let me know.
What a gift…
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Sounds like someone knew just what you needed to heard. Take gentle care.
Yes I feel that is true. Thank You
I cannot imagine what losing your husband must be like, but I love it when my sister talks to me fro the other side. So happy to hear you are learning to find joy in life again. Thanks for sharing a wonderful story, Pamela.
Much love –
Laura
Thank You…